December 2010
ps im gonna purge any starch i eat after 5
you little motherfacker
when im teaching you dont fucking use that motherfucking little cave voice i know you can talk, properly atleast i dont get shit for teaching you, i get a measly one digit pay so sit the fuck up and stop pouting before i shove your homework in your mouth i wanted it to be two hours, but cos you just love to whine my measly pay gets cut into half and i get to listen to you moan and whine you better...
waste
my money, my time, my effort biggest dissapoint of my life, maybe not, but near to it thats great, im not gonna focus on your bullshit anymore you dont mean anything anymore, im so sick of being influenced by your lack of trying and failing at everything i dont really give a rats ass anymore so lets restart, tomorrow i wont have anybody to hang with kimmi is in thailand spring is going to malaysia...
santa baby
so its christmas, lalala looking forward to today, foood, downloading music hopefully some nice will happppen, something that will surprise me im a bit let down with the whole holiday feels like a normal day, doesnt even feel different maybe cos im in an asian country and they dont care or im just getting older and my family doesnt give a shit about family holidays anymore or im just a christmas...
why the fuck am i writing a 3rd blog.. wtf
you didnt hear my wait right before you hung up the phone im such a motherfucking loser cant make up my mind and my bestfriend doesnt even have faith that i wont judge her if she makes certain choices christmas is a time to realise your never going to not be lonely and the best thing to you is a warm bed, sad movies, and really depressing slow indie alternative rock music oh yeah and food cmon...
cold
fuck what a shit night im having im sick, i have to deal with fucking retards that dont fucking listening to me OH WOW GUYS WHY DONT YOU JUST NOT FUCKING TALK TO ME ANYMORE jesus, im so angry, i wanna go see a councillor again and get this shit all off my chest i reckon im just a really angry person i wanna call up someone and yell at them for all the stupid shit “they” put me through...
what the fuck is happening to me more like what the fuck is wrong with you do you really hate me that fucking much do you really like to throw words at me over and over again and see how much you push it or do you just not know what your saying or do you just not learn from what you say in the past i tell you to shutup cos i dont wanna hear anymore shit from your mouth anymore and even when we are...
6 months
finally im sick, it has been six months since ive caught a cold or flu or whatever my throat is cringy and stings.. which is wierd and my nose is runny and blocked at the same time JESUS FUCKING HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLL and my shoulders hurt like a bitch, but restaurant and bakery story are keeping me happy one tree hill too,
kinda wanted to go out today cos its nice weather and shit but noo i just had...
things to do tmr
- sort out face > clean eyebrows, mask and crap - study next three courses > chapters 5, 6 and 8 - excercise in the morning > preferably skipping - prepare tapes for meeting on wednesday - not eat too much and find out how much the excercise bike is - watch one tree hill and greys anatomy - sleep in atleast until twelve - remember to take all medication and buy allergy tablets - drink 8...
